I don’t know how to get this out
It’s all locked away inside
The tears on my pillow the only proof
Of the pain and how much I’ve cried
I thought I’d finally found the one
The one who loved me for me
Only to be left alone again
Rejected and feeling deceived
If I could take it back I would
The pain too much to bare
Destroyed my walls and taught me to feel
And now you don’t even care
How am I supposed to go on
Just smile and always pretend
You’ll always have a piece of my heart
I’ll never accept this is the end
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Utada - This Is The One
MUST buy or download or whatever it is that you do.
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Best tracks:
Come Back To Me
Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence - FYI
This One (Crying Like a Child)
Taking My Money Back - see previous post!
Taking My Money Back
What I gave, you took
Nothin’ came in return
But I kept on givin’, baby
Because the sex was so good
And your talk was so smooth
That I guess I bought it, baby
Now I finally see
You were using me
And I’m takin’ my money back
You’re down on your knees
Beggin’ me not to leave
But I'm takin’ my money back
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OK that right there is the most meaningful song lyric in my life right now. God bless you, Utada. It's like you took that straight from my brain. Every.last.word is true.
Nothin’ came in return
But I kept on givin’, baby
Because the sex was so good
And your talk was so smooth
That I guess I bought it, baby
Now I finally see
You were using me
And I’m takin’ my money back
You’re down on your knees
Beggin’ me not to leave
But I'm takin’ my money back
_______________________________
OK that right there is the most meaningful song lyric in my life right now. God bless you, Utada. It's like you took that straight from my brain. Every.last.word is true.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Two weeks is long enough
I guess I haven't been inspired enough to update this thing, but in all honesty I'm fine. Sometimes I look back at my depressive poetic posts and sort of smile, the journey of emotions one person can go though is unlike anything else on this planet. It's something I'm slowly learning to accept.
One of my friends said something the other day to me that I laughed at...she said "self-esteem is overrated" This came after she told me I was attractive and I was stunned as to why she would think so. Granted I'm not ugly by any means but I'm not conceited enough to think I'm OMG SO SEXY. But it made me feel good.
One of my friends said something the other day to me that I laughed at...she said "self-esteem is overrated" This came after she told me I was attractive and I was stunned as to why she would think so. Granted I'm not ugly by any means but I'm not conceited enough to think I'm OMG SO SEXY. But it made me feel good.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
oh GOD
All I want is to make you happy
All you want is to see me cry
Tell me you love me but hurt me so much
Sometimes I just want to die
Fuck and run right back to her
That’s all you get out of me
I feel so violated and stupid inside
Why do you do that to me?
I give you everything inside of my heart
You tell me that you feel the same
A day or two of pure bliss between us
Then you run away and I feel ashamed
I can’t compete with what you have
She owns your heart, I can tell
I don’t know why I can’t be good enough
I love you, and you put me through hell
This distance between us makes it less real for you
Although we’re just one flight away
I can’t see myself ever being with you
Deep down I know you’re afraid
I don’t understand how you can be so cold
Say the things that you do and then leave
It makes it so hard to trust anything about you.
Your words I never fully believe
One day I hope you’ll be able to see
That I’m willing to give you my life
But you’ll never care, you have to keep up appearances
That one day she’ll be your wife
Scared little boy, just make a choice
I can’t keep on living like this
You can’t have both and expect me to be happy
All you want is to see me cry
Tell me you love me but hurt me so much
Sometimes I just want to die
Fuck and run right back to her
That’s all you get out of me
I feel so violated and stupid inside
Why do you do that to me?
I give you everything inside of my heart
You tell me that you feel the same
A day or two of pure bliss between us
Then you run away and I feel ashamed
I can’t compete with what you have
She owns your heart, I can tell
I don’t know why I can’t be good enough
I love you, and you put me through hell
This distance between us makes it less real for you
Although we’re just one flight away
I can’t see myself ever being with you
Deep down I know you’re afraid
I don’t understand how you can be so cold
Say the things that you do and then leave
It makes it so hard to trust anything about you.
Your words I never fully believe
One day I hope you’ll be able to see
That I’m willing to give you my life
But you’ll never care, you have to keep up appearances
That one day she’ll be your wife
Scared little boy, just make a choice
I can’t keep on living like this
You can’t have both and expect me to be happy
I don’t deserve to be treated like this
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
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