I WANT MYYY SON BAAAACK!!

I know you do, honey. And you kicked ass in that movie.

I would recommend it to anybody.

Are those pussy willows??

YES. Dried ones

Award Season

I swear if anybody knew how fake I had to be at work sometimes I would win an Oscar. It's funny to act like you care and are interested in what people say when you really could give a shit less. It's fun to perform sometimes. Try and put THAT on film Sean Penn.

My ode to Los Angeles

My tribute to the LA lifestyle and a way of expressing my secret hope of going there one day for a specific purpose. One day my call will come.

They say dreams come true in Los Angeles

Everything you'll ever need at your front door

Is it true or just a facade?

Is that my way of getting something more?

The glitz the glamour and of course the fame

The way it would feel to have everyone know your name

Money flows like wine and the sun never sets

The women are all beautiful and have fake breasts

A powerful place that never winds down

A change of pace for me and my white trash town

Could I handle that world or just be pushed aside

My dreams may come true if I only give it a try

Funny Shit

The married guy that my sister is screwing has offered to "take me to a club". If it weren't so ridiculous I may take him up on it. I need to get laid. Badly.

So damn nasty

I'd tap that.

Cocaine Airplane

I'm riding on a cocaine

Airplane, rocket train

And I don't ever wanna come down

I'm walking along

And singing my song

Even though I don't hear a sound

So high above

Everything I love

It feels so good to be free

I'm riding on a cocaine

Airplane, rocket train

And right now I love being me

Breakdown

I'm having a breakdown

Have you seen it anywhere

I lost it on the way to see you

Crumbling into pieces, like always

Living inside a cloud

Touching it but not feeling

My hands can't grasp it no matter how I try

Not close enough, like always

Loving it or hating it

Begging for one or the other

It doesn't matter the outcome anymore

Repeating itself, like always

Wost week of my life

• DUMPED
• Dad in hospital...twice

Honestly I've never felt so depressed or alone. The last week of January will from now on be a black spot. I'm not one to cry and I spent a good three days in a row being a hot emotional mess. Thanks Canada!

But I'm better now. Life will go on and as Leona says, "It'll all get better in tiiiime!" LOL